today is day two without red meat! :) going to be monitoring the way i feel over the course of my little experiment and see if my IBS symptoms relax a bit.
i have already cut milk out and that has helped stupendously! im very pleased with how my body feels and looks right now :) the bloating has gone down sooo much and i don’t feel so backed up. it’s wonderful. should have tried this earlier!
"You need not worry about your worries. Just be. Don’t be restless about ‘being quiet’, miserable about ‘being happy’. Just be aware that you are and remain aware - don’t say: “Yes I am; what’s next?” There is no ‘next’ in ‘I am’. It is a timeless state."
today the wife and i decided to take advantage of the warmest day of the year so far and go thrifting! the thrift stores around here are unique and cute. the first store had gorgeous furniture, the best thrift store book collection ever, and was just a good looking store overall.. unfortunately it was a bit overpriced and none of the dresses i grabbed fit me right and there wasn’t really anything we actually needed. i only bought a book there (called chef’s secrets) and we proceeded to the next thrift store which i absolutely adored. bought tuesdays with morrie (never read it before), a plant watering globe, a ceramic soy tart warmer, an authentic japanese silk robe, and a utensil holder with a coconut tree design and matching spoon rest. all under $16! that’s why i love thrifting so much, you can find so many amazing things for so cheap. i avoid going to chain stores if i can help it. i just wish i scored on some clothes..
oh well, next time!
"When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. And when life is bitter, say thank you and grow."
it’s my wife’s birthday today and i am stuck day working until 1600. i am very happy it is friday because we are going to celebrate the whole weekend! she is leaving to go home on tuesday which is an extremely bittersweet feeling for me.. but i must remember it is for the best and that a school starts next month for me, anyway.
im listening to some meditation music and sipping on some chai tea during my lunch break. i work around a bunch of loud, cursing men and it’s nice to sit and relax to clear my mind.
now, off to finish making her card :)
"I want to live simply. I want to sit by the window when it rains and read books I’ll never be tested on. I want to paint because I want to, not because I’ve got something to prove. I want to listen to my body, fall asleep when the moon is high and wake up slowly, with no place to rush off to. I want not to be governed by money or clocks or any of the artificial restraints that humanity imposes on itself. I just want to be, boundless and infinite."
a week from tomorrow, my wife leaves to go back home :( i am so sad the day is here so soon! my last day of work should be the 19th and i will be flying out home for 9 days before reporting into petaluma for school. it’s going to be a fun and busy next month and a half traveling and tying up my loose ends here at the station!
i am making the decision to cut red meat out of my eating habits and to greatly reduce poultry and dairy consumption. i am trying to work up the courage to watch earthlings (google it!) but i am so sensitive when it comes to seeing animals tortured by humans. i am sure i will make a complete vegetarian switch if i watch it, so i am building up the courage.
also, next month i am making the commitment to go with a friend to see a medium/psychic for the first time in my life! hoping it will give some insight into my future.. i am excited and don’t really know what to expect.
also, i am going to start collecting gems and stones with healing properties.. i have been doing some research and the subject interests me greatly. plus, they are just so beautiful!
my mom is getting an ultrasound on her heart today. praying and hoping for good news <3 that’s it for this long weekend.. back to work tomorrow.
emotional abuse is when someone does something to hurt you, and when you express your feelings, that you’re upset, they turn it around to be something you did to hurt them and they force you to apologize for it, and your feelings, like always, are rendered invalid and silenced, because since the other person was hurt at some point you aren’t allowed to be hurt, forever damaging the ability to trust others with your feelings because they always are used against you.